The fabulous life of sweetseryn....

I pretty much fucking hate you!  Are you gonna get a call from me?  Lets see...did I get a call from you on mothers day? How bout my birthday?  There's your answer! 

You are a worthless steaming pile of shit! 

I would like to thank the only dad I had in my life, MY MOM, for always being there for me and NOT being a steaming pile of shit!  She was a steaming pile of LOVE!

Fuck you dad!

Sincerely your first born

Go to hell!!!!

Tonight from 8:30p-9:30p your local time is Earth Hour 09!!!!! It doesn't take much to participate!  Just turn off your lights during that hour! DONE!  It can't hurt, and it might help!  We all should do our part to quit destroying this planet!

As a side note!  If you haven't read Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, it is a very interesting insiteful book.  I think it is a must read for people that actually give a shit in general!  It has some interesting ideas and theorys about our planet in general!  Also a pretty quick read, I think I finished it in a two days or so!  Go check it out at the library if you want! 

So!  SHUT YOUR DAMN LIGHTS OFF TONIGHT!  No excuses, wether or not you believe it will make a difference, that doesn't matter either, you know why?  CUZ IT COULDN'T HURT!  Now I feel like I'm bullying people into participating...okay!  I'm done! 
Peace
CK

So today was just another normal day at work!  I have one job going on right now that are a bunch of playground renovations.  Basically there are about 5 playgrounds on the contract.  We are going in, demo'ing out all the existing playground equipment and replacing it with bright shiny new playground equipment.  There is a general contractor, for those of you not familiar they run the thing, and two subs, they are the GC's bitches.  (But in reality they are all my bitches *insert evil fucking laugh*)  The GC does the dirt work, one sub does the concrete work and the other sub does the actual installing of playground equipment.

(Sorry for all the background, it's a little relavant to the story)

So everything up to this point has been going mediocre at best, every time I turn around the concrete crew is stirring up some minor drama, which wouldn't normally matter...BUT THE KEEP DOING IT, and IT'S GETTING OLD!  So I already don't have patience with ANY of these guys!!!

At this point in the project I have three parks that are tore up all the grading and concrete work has been done BUT there is absolutely no playground equipment going in.  Here is where "Russell" enters the story.  He is a one man show, basically, owns his own business, he is a little older, but not "Old" by any means, and has a couple of guys working for him, yada yada yada.  I have not seen Russell on the project for quite a while now, and as of like a week or so ago, I'm starting to get very antsy.  The residents of Fort Worth tend to get a little bitchy if there is a park in the middle of their neighborhood that is tore up and nothing is being done, and THEY WATCH to see whats going on, so I'm just waiting for the phone calls to start.

I show up on the job today and was talking to my concrete guy and basically said "This shit is starting to piss me off, there isn't any activity going on at these parks, WTF?" (Yeah, i really do talk like that one the job)  THAT is when my concrete forman goes "You haven't heard about Russell?" I was like "Ummm...No?"

He proceeds to tell me that Russell was in some sort of work related accident (not on one of my jobs) and is basically in the hospital and he's not in good shape at all.  I go over and start talking to the GC's foreman and he tells me the rest of the story....

Without going into details, that don't really matter really, the accident has basically left Russell in a vegetative state!  I was just floored!  I mean, I didn't know what to say, FIRST OFF, I felt like a big ole piece of shit, because I was like starting to rant about where the hell is Russell?  Then I was just amazed at the whole situation!  Like I said this guy is older, not old by any means, DEF had some years left in him and some little slip (okay it was a little more than a slip, but I don't want to get any more technical than I already have) and now the doctors are telling his wife that it will basically take a miracle for him to come through this!

The whole point of this is that "It can all be gone, or be over, just like that!"  BAM!  You're done!  This isn't the first time that I have been slapped with that reality.  It's amazing, everytime I experience something like this, I think "Wow, I'll never take anything for granted again, I will enjoy life to the last drop, squeeze every last bit out of everything and have no regrets" but sadly it doesn't last, and even more sadly, something comes along again, and I have the same thought....again. 

 I don't want to be overly dramatic about this whole thing, to be honest, it's not like me a Russell were BFF's, I worked with him for a minute, he was a nice guy, he had a nice smile, he was a little irritated the last time that I talked to him because of the concrete crews shenannigan, be HEY!  SO WAS I!  But this whole thing did leave an impression, and once again, I'm sitting here thinking "I will make sure that all my friends and family KNOW I love them and KNOW that they mean something to me, and KNOW that I'm happy I got to be included in their lives....

I think I'm done...cuz I think I'm rambling at this point!  I think you all get it! 

On a side note I have renamed Vinnie "God" and Dot "Satan" because there always seems to be an epic battle of good and evil in my house and Dot is DEF no saint!

LATER GATERS!

CK

I haven't been around much lately, so I haven't been commenting on pics!  My FUCKING COMPUTER CRASHED AGAIN!!!  There is a lesson in my rage: Don't EVAR buy anything from Best Buy and then DEF don't let them fix it when it is broke!  So anyway.  Once again, I'm learning how to cope with life without the internet to run to.  No LOLcats, no Best of Craigslist, no Youtubing....nothing!  I'm on my work computer right now and I'm not "supposed" to be on here!  Buzznet is basically the only social networking site not blocked LOL!!!

But everything is going pretty good, actually!  I got some good news yesterday.  It looks like I SHOULD be able to buy a house by the end of the year!  I qualify for a loan, not the evil kind either, I checked LOL!!!  And there is a plethora of decent foreclosed houses that fit my price range around here, so I'm pretty stoked!  Just gotta come up with a down payment, but that shouldn't be to hard.  Might have to take on a second job temporarily to give me a boost, but HEY!  It will totally be worth it if I can get a house where my daughter can actually have her own room, and Vinnie can have a yard to run around, and I won't have to worry if I'm making to much noise for my neighbor that lives below me! 

So I'm sorry I'm rambling!  But I will hopefully have my other computer back in about 2 weeks, and I promise I will comment bomb the hell outta all of you :D 

CK

P.S. Thank you to whoever suggested my last pic that I posted!  I didn't even see that it was featured until a couple of days after the fact, so I wasn't able to see who suggested it!  But thank you!!! :D

 

It looks like Marilyn Manson is going to be headlining  Rockstar Mayhem this year along with Slayer.  At least that is was Revolver is saying.  Killswitch Engage is a maybe it looks like at this point!

Revolvers website had this to say about the rest of the line-up:  "Mayhem Part Deux boasts a Hot Topic Stage manned by Whitechapel, Black Dahlia Murder, Job for a Cowboy, Behemoth, and Cannibal Corpse, and a Jägermeister Stage with God Forbid, All That Remains, and Trivium. Add a Main Stage featuring Bullet for My Valentine, Slayer, and Marilyn Manson, and this looks to be a sequel of Godfather II proportions."

I went last summer to the inaugural Mayhem were Slipknot and Disturbed headlined and had an AWESOME time! 

Here are the dates that are being reported by Revolver:

07/10 - Sacramento, CA
07/11 - San Francisco, CA
07/12 - San Bernardino, CA
07/14 - Seattle, WA
07/17 - Phoenix, AZ
07/18 - Albuquerque, NM
07/19 - Denver, CO
07/21 - Kansas City
07/22 - St. Louis, MO
07/24 - Atlanta, GA
07/25 - Indianapolis, IN
07/26 - Chicago, IL
07/28 - Toronto, ON
07/29 - Scranton, PA
07/31 - Cleveland, OH
08/01 - Pittsburgh, PA
08/02 - Detroit, MI
08/04 - Boston, MA
08/06 - Virginia Beach, VA
08/07 - Camden, NJ
08/08 - Hartford, CT
08/09 - Washington, DC
08/11 - Tampa, FL
08/12 - West Palm Beach, FL
08/14 - Dallas, TX
08/15 - Houston, TX
08/16 - San Antonio, TX

Here is a link to the revolver article...hopefully it works, but no promises! :D

http://revolvermag.com/node/2602

Apparently so!!!  I know I've been on sort of a Scott Weiland kick lately, but I think it's pretty understandable!  ANYWHOOOOOOooooooo....apparently he has been working with Christopher Wicks (I say that like I know who he is!) to launch a mens clothing line.  It will be called "Weiland" for English Laundry. He will debut it this February, the 17th to be exact, at the Magic Marketplace Tradeshow in Las Vegas!

OOoooooo....I can't wait to see what kinda stuff he will come up with!!!! :D  

I'm sorry but I couldn't believe this!  Today has DEF been a pretty remarkable day for me in more ways than one :D  Thank you guys!  I appreciate it!  I really really do!

 

So here what I remember about Friday night, January 16, 2008, aka THE DAY I GOT TO MEET SCOTT WEILAND!!! ;D

We started of in Fort Worth, I went to pick up Rachel (shatterdreams) at the train station and we headed to Austin!  It's about a 3.5 hour drive but it went SUPER fast with Rachel there to talk to!  So all the sudden we were in Austin three hours early, searching for a bathroom and batteries!

We found both...eventually and then went in search of the venue, NO THANKS TO YAHOO, we found the place and then parked and went to Spaghetti Wharehouse to eat, yummy, I LOVE that place :D

ANYWHOOOOO....no on to the concert!  The opening band was Alpha Rev.  An awesome band from Austin!  They seriously blew me away.  I was there to see Scott, but DEF came away a fan of this band. They kind of had a Radiohead sound.  They had a violinist that was amazing!  They had a pretty big sound, I just liked everything about them...did I mention the violinist?  Yeah!  They were good!

NOW!  On to the man of the evening.  About 30 minutes after they were supposd to start, Scott Weiland and company showed up on stage!  It was AWESOME!!!  I was in awe of the whole evening!  He came on and sang and danced, it was fantastic!  (All the exclamation points are necessary, trust me!!!!)  So pretty much he sang stuff off of "Happy" in Galoshes, his new solo CD.  But he also sang a couple of STP songs, Vaseline, Interstate Love Song, Atlanta and I think he sang another one...I can't really remember...I also think that he might have sang Mockingbird Girl, but I can't be for sure, I would have to ask Rachel to be sure...but that was how the concert went!  It was GREAT!  Scott sang and danced, unfortunately his shirt didn't come completely off.

So after the show was over Rachel and I were going to hang out, but they were kicking everyone out of the concert area.  We decided that we would go stand out by the bus.  We were there for awhile and no Scott, but the bassist (Who was super hot, me and Rachel both agreed on that) showed up.  He walked back into the bar, so we followed him, thought if anything we would get to meet him and that would be good enough.  This whole time, I HOPING we could meet Mr. Weiland, but I REALLY didn't think it was going to happen. 

We go back in the bar and were kinda standing around.  The bassist was pretty much surrounded by people the whole time, so we kinda decided to chill out for a bit, Rachel got a beer, I was trying not to fall asleep (HEY! GIVE ME AN F-ING BREAK!!!  I was up at like 6 am Friday morning and at this time it was about 1 am Saturday morning, I was EXHAUSTED)  I was loosing hope pretty quickly.  We had pretty much decided after Rachel finished her beer, we would go. So we sat down on a couch and started talking to this guy.  After a couple of minutes Rachel grabbed my hand...I looked up and SCOTT WEILAND WAS IN THE FUCKING BAR!!! OMG! OMG! OMG!!!!!  I had NO IDEA what I was going to do.  I think that at first me and Rachel were going to go up to him. but we decided we would give him some space, he just put on a show!  Geez, let the man have a beer right?  NO!  He got himself a drink and ended up in a booth with the bassist and a couple of chicks.  Then a crowd of people descended on the booth.  I started loosing hope even then!  I was like, this isn't going to happen!  So we waited

After a little while I was like "Rachel lets go!" as in let's go to Scott.  We both got up and then when we got up there, I was lke "NOO!!! I can't do this" Seriously, I got SSSOOO nervous!  I just had ZERO confidence.  The guy that we were talking to followed us up there, there was still a bunch of people surrounding Scott, so we were kinda standing there.  From this point on it is kinda a blur.  I think that everyone at the table was getting irritated with everyone else hanging out asking for pics and stuff.  Somehow we ended up at the table and we got to shake hands with Scott and say hi, he smiled! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! Afterwards, I was talking to Rachel and we both decided that Scott had nice hands and they were nice and soft and not clammy or anything, they were great LOL!!!!

At this time, everyone at the table apparently decided they were going to leave the bar.  At first, when we asked for a pic, Scott said no, like I said there were tons of people standing around asking for the same thing and I think that the group was really irritated.  Then somehow, for some reason, the guy that we had been talking to on the couch stepped in and did some SERIOUS fast talking and managed to talk Scott into a pic and he agreed!  I have no idea who that guy was or what he said, but THANK YOU!!!!! 

And just that fast it was over!  We were walking out of the bar and headed back to Fort Worth!!!  Also Mr. Weiland!  THANK YOU for taking a pic with us, you have NO IDEA how much that meant to a bunch of little fan girls like us, you totally made my day, week, month, year, LIFE!  LOL!!!  I still can't believe how great that day turned out!  It was a GREAT way to start off the year!

THE END!!! :D

P.S. Sorry for the rambling...It's just kinda how I remember the night going! LOL!!!

Here is my list of HOT METAL DUDES!  In no particular order, because lets be honest, at any time of any day, the object of my obsession could change!  I TOTALLY reserve that right :D (Most of these pics that I'm putting up kinda suck...cuz I don't know how to resize them, but HEY!  You get the idea ;D)

David Draiman- I just want to touch that bald head of his, even though he's SUPER short, there is just something about him that...well...anyway....

James Hetfield- He's a little older, like old enough to be my dad, but I don't really care, I would let him sing me to sleep ANYTIME!!!!  HELL YEAH! :D (I like James minus the hair BTW)

Zakk Wylde- Once again, a little older, but I DO NOT DISCRIMINATE!  K?  I love this man, both times I've seen him with Ozzy, I just love to watch him play!  I even like his guitar :D  I'm not usually into long hair, but I don't mind it on this guy LOL!!!

Rob Zombie- He looks dirty and skeezy, but he also seems like he would be a lot of fun! 

Corey Taylor- This one was on MJ's list, but I like him too...so I put him on my list too :D  IDK, I kinda even like him with a mask on!  Either way, it don't matter to me.  LOL!!!

All the guys in Apocalyptica- They are from Norway and they play cellos and they are HOT!

Zacky V.- I just love his eyes, MUAH! :D

Jesse Landry- plays with In This Moment, yeah Maria usually gets all the attention, but I love watching THIS guys ;D

Joe Brown- OH HAI!....yeah :D

Trent Reznor-....He might not be considered "metal" but as far as I'm concerned he should to every "(Whatever) Hot Dudes" List!  I don't care if it is metal, country, rap, whatever :D  So here is a pic of him to close this thing out LOL!!! ENJOY :D

 

 

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YEAH....I heard about this yesterday when it was a "rumor" and then read it on my twitter today now it's apparently a "fact".   So Metallica has been together for...almost as long as I've been alive...no really, I was born in 1980, Metallica's been a band since 1981...and they are just now going to be inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame?  WOW! 

I think most people would agree that Metallica are LEGENDARY and PIONEERS (at least pioneers of metal, right?)  Either way this is long over due.  They join a list of legendary pioneering type people in the music industry, so CONGRATS Metallica! You guys TOTALLY deserve it :D

CK

EDIT: I just read that bands are only eligible for being inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame 25 years AFTER the release of their first album and Metallicas first album apparently dropped in 1983 which basically makes 08 the first year they would've been eligible for this honor.....Oooopppsssss, did not know that, but I'm glad I do now, I feel less outrage now :D

YAY!!!  It's that time of the year where we can all sit back and reflect about how awesome it was...at least mine was awesome...maybe yours wasn't...that's to bad if that was the case...BACK TO MY AWESOME YEAR!!!!

OK!  To start off....

Top 10 Concerts of 08

1.Ozzfest- I seen a lot of good shit this year and to put Ozzfest at number was both difficult and a given!  The thing that put it over the top for me was this: Ozzy and Metallica, one night, one stage...it was fucking epic!  I felt so lucky to be apart of that!

2.Nine Inch Nails- This was the other "SUPER AWESOME" concert that I went to.  NIN were one of the many bands that I hadn't seen before but got an opportunity to see this year!  The anticipation for this concert was so ridiculous, I thought I would loose my job for not paying attention and too much day dreaming :) I was so excited, and I was not dissapointed!  Trent Reznor!  I love you, you fucking rock! :D

3.Stone Temple Pilots- Another band that I have worshipped since the beginning of time but haven't seen before.  When I heard that Scott was leaving Velvet Revolver and STP was getting back together, the only thing I could think was "I HAVE TO SEE THEM THIS TIME AROUND!!!!" and I did!!!  It was great! :D

4.Project Revolution- This would probably be the one tour that I wasn't all that excited about seeing.  I hadn't seen Linkin Park before, but I really liked Minutes to Midnight (I think I'm the only person on the planet that liked that CD) so I wanted to see them.  I was BLOWN AWAY by how much of a good time I had.  Starting out at the beginning of the day seeing Armour for Sleep all the way until Linkin Park sang Bleed It Out during the encore, it was a great day!!!

5. Edgefest 18- THIS was a great day!  In one day I got to see Alkaline Trio, Papa Roach, Rise Against (First time seeing them), The Offspring and STP.  It was a long day and me and Rachel managed to keep our place on the barricades, up until STP came on and then I left for the back.  I had such a great time!!! (I say that alot, but I really mean it when I say it)

6.Taste of Chaos- I was a mediocre Avenged Sevenfold fan before ToC, after seeing them live, I fell head over heals for these guys.  This was also the first time that I got to see Atreyu!  I could watch that band all day long!!!  They were great, I got a chance to see them two more times this year!  Everytime it got better and better

7. Mayhem- Also known as "The first time I got to see Slipknot" IT WAS GREAT!!!  HELL I took my daughter to this one (I took her to STP and Ozzfest too) and SHE even enjoyed it!  I remember is was f-in HOT and I sweat my ass off, but that didn't prevent me from jumping around like a heathen!!!!  Seeing Disturbed again was good too, it renewed my love of them and David Draiman, he has such awesome stage presence for such a tiny guy! :D

8. Freakers Ball-This was the first time I got to see Mudvayne!!!....and Puddle of Mudd (BBBBBOOOOOO!!!!!) I hate them, it's no secret.  10 Years, Theory of a Deadman and Five Finger Death Punch were the rest of the bands that I got to see on that day, which happened to be Halloween.  Watching Chad (From Mudvayne) move around on stage in a pink fuzzy gorilla looking suit was great!  I just like it alot when people don't take themselves to seriously :D

9. In This Moment- This was the 3rd that I had seen ITM in less than a year, but it was probably the best show, because it was a really small and intimate show, not many people showed up, so I felt like I had this awesome band all to myself :D

10. Toadies at the Ridglea- This is the one concert that would only really appeal to people living in this area, I think.  I'm a huge Toadies fan and when they broke up, it was like a member of the family had died.  Since they are from Fort Worth, it would figure that the show sold out in like 45 minutes!  LUCKILY I was one of those people that got a ticket.  It was an awesome performance, great crowd, great energy!!! 

There were other SERIOUSLY AWESOME concerts that I went to this year and if Top 10 somehow actually meant 20 I would add: Tiger Army, Rancid, The Horroropops, Swinging Utters, A Static Lullaby, Anberlin, Foxboro Hot Tubs, The Bravery.... and I'm sure there are more, I those are the only ones that I can come up with off the top of my head that I had a really good time at.

 

SO APPARENTLY!  The US military, in their infinite wisdom, has been using music as a means of torture for prisoners of war.  This is in an attempt to "break" them and make them talk. 

Detainee's at Guatanamo Bay are forced to listen to music at "deafening levels" for day, weeks and sometimes months on end.  The list of music that has been used have included songs from AC/DC, Bee Gees, Drowning Pool, Eminem, NIN, Rage Against The Machine and Red Hot Chili Peppers to name a few.  They have also used the theme song of Sesame Street and a Barney song.

Musicians have been speaking out against this since learning of the practice.  The most vocal, of course, is Tom Morello of Rage Against the Machine in this article, http://www.guardian.co.uk/music/2008/dec/10/stop-the-music-torture-initiative , Morello says "I suggest they level Guantanamo Bay, but they keep one small cell and they put Bush in there ... and they blast some Rage Against the Machine."  Just another reason to love and appreciate RATM's existence, am I right?

The new Zero Decibel Initiative has come about because of all this.  Its purpose is to hopefully ".... bring an end to the technique by gathering the support of musicians whose songs are used in controversial interrogation techniques by US forces in Iraq, Afghanistan and Guantanamo Bay."

The site www.ZerodB.org has been created to bring awarness to the public.  I went to the website earlier and there isn't much on there yet, but the word on the street is that there are going to be a "series of silent protests and actions planned throughout 2009"

What do you think about using music as a means of torture? 

 

 

Bettie Page died yesterday!!!  To be honest, this falls into the "I didn't even know she was still alive" category!!!  But RIP anyway! 

She was one of the people that I've always kinda looked up to.  I didn't look up to her in the sense that I wanted to be a "Pin-Up Girl" but I always thought that she was so incredibly beautiful and had great style.  I respected her because she was considered beautiful and she was voluptuous and didn't look all cracked out like the models and "Pinups" that you see today!  Her work was classic not skanky.  It was probably a result of the era she was working in, but still!  Her stuff is great!!!  I've wanted to be her for like the past 3 or 4 Halloweens, but I couldn't find a costume that I liked well enough that would do her justice. 

She was an iconic figure, still is if you ask me.  So RIP Bettie Page!  Now I guess heaven will have one of the most popular pin up girls of the 1950's gracing it's pearly gates and streets made of gold :D 

 

I have two sets of two pics that I want to put together, but side by side, to make one pic (two total pics).  I have GIMP, but I can't for the life of me figure out how to do it.  I was wondering if anyone out there would be willing to do it for me if I email the pics to you, I will TOTALLY give you mucho credit when I post the pic on here.  I would be FOREVER greatful.

Thanks!

Candace

...I drove past a wreck, involving at least 4 vehicles that I could see, that just had happened!  I mean I litterally drove up on it right afterwards, there weren't any emergency peeps there yet, although a firetruck was on it's way.

As I was driving by I noticed some people walking around (Good sign!)  Then I glanced in the drivers side window of one of the vehicles and saw a lady sitting there with all kinds of blood running down her face! :(

I'm assuming she was alright, I know that head injuries tend to bleed like a mf'er, but I saw that her eyes were open and that she was moving her mouth (It's amazing what a person can pick up in just a glance right?)

I'm hoping she was fine like I was assuming, but that picture will stay in my head for awhile!  That kinda shit disturbs the hell outta me! 

On a side note....I see WAY TOO MANY WRECKS on my way to work!  I seriously drive by at least one a week!  That is just on my way to work, I'm not even going to mention the shit I drive by on my drives to and from jobs!  UGH!  I wish people would just pull their heads outta their asses when they drive.  I'm sure so much could be avoided by just paying attention and not acting like a jackass!!!

CK

So I called this one "30 Hours" Pretty soon you'll figure out why!!! :D  I posted this last year on my Myspace and thought I would post it this year (updated of course) on here.  THANK YOU SO MUCH RACHEL!!!  For grabbing this off my myspace for me!  (My personal computer is down at the moment and my work computer doesn't have access to myspace :*(   )  I hope you guys that take the time to read this, enjoy it!!! :D

On this day, nine years ago, at 1:47 am, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl 7 lbs 11.5 oz, 20.5 inches long. Seryn Elyse! Here is the readers digest version of the story....

On November 9th, 1999 I went to the doctor, my last doctors visit, I was already 5 days past my due date. The doctor asked me if I was ready to have a baby, I in no uncertain terms let him know that I was MORE than ready to have a baby :), so he told me to go to the hospital around 8pm that night to induce labor. I spent the rest of the day getting ready and pacing, making phone calls, letting family and friends know what was going on.

I make it to the hospital after 8pm, of course I'm late to everything, one of my dearest friends, Crystal was already there, I wouldn't have expected anything less from her (LOVE YOU GIRL!!!) Me and Joey, were CERTAIN we were going to have a boy. We had decided that we didn't want to know the sex of the baby, so that it would be a surprise at the birth. We both wanted a girl badly, but were convinced that we would have a boy, because that is exactly what we didn't want. So Crystal showed up to the hospital with a present of beautiful clothes for a boy, she let me know that she had a girls outfit too, just in case we ended up with one of them instead. Once again, I wouldn't have expected anything less from her, she was ALWAYS!!!! prepared.

So the evening commenced. The doctor came in told me we would be having a baby by 5 or 6 the next morning. I had a room full of people waiting for the arrival of our new bundle of joy. And we waited. At first I refused the epidural, because things were going swimmingly. No pain, no worries. And we waited.

November 9th, turned into November 10th. And we waited. The pain started coming, of course!!! The nurses would come in, the doctor would come in. The room was pretty busy. I had my friend Crystal there, of course, my mom was there, Joey, his mom, and my granny, people were in and out. And NOTHING was happening, NO BABY!!!! And we waited.

The doctor eventually decided to break the water, and then the pain REALLY started coming. And we waited. After 15 hours of labor, about half of that spent in hard labor, I decided that maybe drugs weren't a bad thing to have. So I started begging for drugs. The anesthesiologist was busy, he couldn't be bothered with me, so they gave me demoral, sweet beautiful demoral. I started "loving" everyone. I was so happy, everything was great. And we waited some more. After awhile the anesthesiologist showed up, he decided that I deserved some of the good stuff. I was really nervous about the method of administering the "good stuff" but then again, I wasn't really "digging" the pain. So Dr. Feel Good started doing his thing. He leaned me over a pillow and told me "Relax" YEAH FUCKING RIGHT!!!! So he, literally, stabbed me in the back!  The first time, he hit bone, he was going to have to stab me again. YAY!!!! So I "Relax"ed again, so he could hopefully do his thing. This time was a success. I didn't feel anything for the rest of the ordeal.

So morning turned into afternoon, turned into night. And we waited. I had no idea anything was wrong. I knew the nurses would come in the room and flip me over on one side and then the other, I was pretty much a beached whale at this point, completely unable to move. I was in and out of consciousness. People were sick of waiting, because they had their own lives to attend to, go figure, we were supposed to have had a baby early that morning right? But NO!!!! We WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED!!!

So at some point in the early morning hours of November 11th, 1999 the doctor decided that something was wrong, everytime the nurses would turn me over on a certain side the baby's heartbeat would drop dramatically. The doctor finally came in my room and said they were going to have to go in and take the baby. I remember the only thing that I could think was "Great, how long is this going to take" The doctor told me that only one person was allowed to be in the room with me, I of course wanted my mom in there. Then some nurses came in the room with a bed to wheel me to "the room" They asked me if I could move myself...Ummmm....NO! I can't feel anything below my waiste. Eventually I made it to the other bed, they wheeled me into the surgery room, there were people doing things all over the room. One of the nurses came over to me, put her hand on my throat and told me, that I was going to feel a pinch and then I would go to sleep.

And I'll be damned if the next thing I remember was waking up and asking where my mom was. She didn't make it into the room until after they put me out, and I was wanting to know where she was at. I didn't realize that everything was already done, and I was in the recovery room. The nurse that was tending to me said that she was down the hall seeing the baby. I said "Oh I had the baby?" "Yes" "What was it?" "A little Girl" I was ssssooooo happy. I mean come on I got what I wanted, a girl!!!!

After 29 hours and 47 minutes, I had the baby!!! YAY!!! The doctor later told me that her umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck and then went and figure eighted around her legs. He informed me that A.) That was the longest umbilical cord he had ever seen AND B.) He had NEVER seen a baby lassoed like that. I was SSSSOOOO thrilled to be making history.....yeah right!

The rest is history really, it has been one learning experience after another. For those of you that have children already you understand. You live your life everything is great. Then you have a child, and all the sudden you start seeing life through the eyes of a child, and you appreciate things that used to seem mundane and silly. You rediscover a whole world of things that you had forgotten about because you were to busy working, going to school, trying to get a head. It's great. And like I remember hearing one guy that I used to work with say " I wouldn't take a million bucks for her, and I would give a million for another one just like her" He said it lovingly of course. I always thought it was funny.... and I couldn't agree more.

In closing, I would like to thank my mommy, for being there the whole time, in the room with me, giving my beautiful daughter her first name. I would like to thank Crystal for being there too, and for graciously accepting the original outfits, that she gave me, back and giving me the little girl outfits :) I even wouldn't mind sending a shoutout to my ex and his mom, after all is said and done, he's a good father, and she is a loving grandmother and my daughter has both of them wrapped around her little finger.

As for my baby, I would like to say, I'm glad you're still alive. I have managed to keep you alive longer than any plant or animal that I have ever owned. It hasn't been the smoothest ride, and we butt heads sometimes (She has a mouth on her, who would've thought right?) But I love you and for someone who was concieved during a viewing of Beavis and Butthead Do America, you have certainly exceeding either mine or your fathers expectations and you make me proud EVERY single day. I love you, your laugh, your smile, your voice, your cute little ass!!! You are just great. I love you and happy birthday :)

So yesterday one of the radio stations that I listen to during that day announced a "Christmas" concert that they are going to have in early December called "XXX-mas" blah blah blah!  Well, FINE!  So who cares!  To be honest i was only slightly interested in what the lineup is!

Then they announced the lineup!  It goes a little something like this:

Buckcherry, Hinder, Drowning Pool, Rev Theory, In This Moment and Pimpadelic (Seriously?  I've never heard of this band, anyone now if they are any good?)

So I'm pretty much outraged!  I HATE HATE HATE Buckcherry and Hinder!  HATE THEM!  So why do I even care enough to be outraged?  Cuz I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE X IFINITY In This Moment!  I LOVE THEM!  I also really dig the shit outta Drowning Pool, those boys are some cool mf'in Texans!  I'm mildly interested in Rev Theory!

Another reason I'm outraged?  FUCKING A7X IS TOURING WITH BUCKCHERRY RIGHT NOW!!!  SO WHY WHY WHY are they not on the ticket for this show?  If A7X was going to be there, I would have no question in my mind weather or not I was going to go?

So now I have to decide how bad I want to see ITM.  I could spend the money for a good seat and see basically the three bands I mentioned up there, and leave before Hinder and Buckcherry get all the redneck girls and guys all stirred up by singing their lameass "I'm Too Drunk to Whatever" or "Lips of an Angel BLAH BLAH BLAH" therefore annoying the shit outta me? Or wait for the tix to get cheap (which is a possibility, cuz the same station did the same thing for the Mudvayne concert I just went to). 

WHY does this station keep mixing up awesome artists with shitty ones?  They should put me in charge of putting the shows together!  I SWEAR! :(

 

 

So between last Saturday and yesterday, I was pretty busy!  Work and play!  I was pretty exhausted by the time all was said and done!

I started off with Edgefest last Saturday.  Which was a really good time.  I went and see The Horrorpops and company on Tuesday.  Thursday was the Pink Spiders.  And my crowning jewel MUDVAYNE on Friday for Halloween!!!   It was great!  Then today I went and seen an impressionist exhibit at the art museum downtown...yeah, I do metal and Monet! LOL!!! :)

This next week should be a good one!  I'm actually looking forward to the next two weeks...maybe the next three weeks, LOL!!!

This coming weekend is when I get to be in the movie, me and Martina were supposd to go clothes shopping for that today, but I decided to wear heals to the museum and after I got through the exhibit my feet were screaming at me....I used to be a girl before I started working construction and had to start wearing steel toes to work :(  LOL!!!

Next week, the real sweet seryn turns the bit "9" (I have a special blog I will be sharing with the buzzworld on that day :D)!  I won't get to see her on her b-day, but I am going home the weekend after and it is looking like it is going to be fun!  I'm going to get to see my baby, my nephew and one of my BFF's that is 7 months prego!  I'm sure she's as big as a house! YAY!!! :) 

Seryn want her ears pierced for her b-day and so I'm going to make that happen and I'm thinking about getting another piercing...kinda like mother/daugther piercing thing going on! 

Soooo...not much else going on...thought I had more to say actually...just realized that i don't!  Hope everyone had a happy and safe Halloween.  And hope everyone has a great week! :) 

PEACE!

Candace

P.S. All of you Americans that are old enough BETTER go out and vote on Tuesday! K? THX! BAI!

I'm SSSOOO serious! :)  I was listening to the radio last week when my fave DJ came on and was talking about how some people were filming a movie called "Zombie Christ" in Denton and needed as many people to come and be zombies, bikers, and townspeople.  So I, never one to turn down an opportunity, proceeded to email the peeps taking care of all that stuff, because I thought it sounded like WAY too much fun! I told them that I wanted to be a zombie, of course!

I don't know any particulars, other than the filming will be on November 8 and 9.  I told my friend Martina and she is going to do it and I think that Rachel is going to do it to!  I decided that this will probably turn into one of those "Straight to DVD" type movies, but I'm going to have a blast anyway!  This shit just doesnt' happen around here very often LOL!!!!

Later gaters,

CK

Since I know some (alot) of you were DYING to know how I spent my Saturday, I thought I would write a journal for you, please save your applause until the end :D

Yesterday me and Rachel (shatteredreams) went out to Frisco, Texas to enjoy the second Edgefest of the year, the reason for having a second Edgefest remains a mystery to both of us still!!!  Well instead of giving you an in depth run down of every band, like I have in th past, I'm going to keep this one short and sweet....going to try something new :D

So I'll go through them in order, first to last, here we go!

Drive A- Have heard of them before, have had an opportunity to see them, but always managed to miss them, I'm sad now.  They are a group of super tiny boys (men?) from California that play some pretty entertaining punk rock!  I loved them!!! :D

Saving Abel- I SERIOUSLY hated this band the first time I saw them in concert (which would be the first time I had heard of them period).  After seeing them this time around, I dislike them less, but I will never be a fan!  Like I've stated on a QOTD a while back, to me Saving Abel is like the product of an unholy union between Nickleback and Buckcherry, and I'm still standing by that!

Alkaline Trio-Were SUPER FANTASTIC!!!!  I loved everything about them down to Matt Skiba's bright green socks and shoes. They did a tribute to Jerry Finn towards the end of thier set!  It was sad, but sweet :D

Seether-For someone who isn't a huge Seether fan, I've seen them in concert more times than I can remember!  But FINALLY this time they did something a little different, they did two Nirvana covers!  And you know what?  They were some of the best Nirvana covers I'd ever heard, I was in SHOCK!!!  I never would've thought that Shaun Morgan's voice would've gone so damn well with a Nirvana song, but dammit!  It did!  They sang Rape Me and another song that I can not for the life of me remember right now! 

Papa Roach-I hadn't seen these guys since "Last Resort" came out and they started making a name for themselves, so I was somewhat interested in seeing them again!  They definatly exceeded expectation.  Highlight of their set is when Jacoby Shaddix sang the chorus to Scars (I think it was Scars, would have to ask Rachel to make sure..might've been Forever) in Spanish!  Everyone thought that was pretty cool!!! :D

Rise Against- One of probably 3 bands that I was super stoked to see at this festival!  I hadn't had the opportunity to see them before, so I was SO HAPPY!!!  Cuz I love them!  I enjoyed everything from beginning to end, of course!  Fun Fact: Guitarist Zach Blair is the brothers with Doni Blair who was Lisa Umbargers replacement in the Toadies...I found that out today and it explained something that I seen yesterday :D

Toadies-This is the third time that I've seen these guys...this year!  LOL!!!  Fifth time overall!  You would think I would be tired of these guys, but I'm not!  I don't know how well their shows go in other states, but since they are from Texas, they burn the house down everytime they play in this area!  They played some old stuff (all the goodies, Possum Kingdom, Tyler, Burn, I Come From The Water, Backslider, etc) and they played some stuff off their new CD! 

Staind-Nothing really remarkable to say about their set.  They sang some good songs, the crowd was DEF into it!  But it really was just a typical set!

The Offspring-Another one of the 3 bands that I was SSSOOO stoked to see!  Once again, I hadn't ever seen these guys befor, but spent way too much time with their CD Smash in high school, so this was DEF a dream come true!  They were awesome, I wanted to take tons of pics of them, but was to busy dancing around like a jack ass :D

Stone Temple Pilots-The second time I've seen them this year and EVER!  It was great!  I kinda knew what to expect since I just seen them in June, but was amazed none the less!  I was scared because they band was about 15 minutes late getting on stage and I was afraid that Scott was...pulling a Scott, but they showed up and as far as I could tell all the important parties were sober, at least they didn't screw up any words to songs that I could tell!!! :D  It was a great show!

Other than that, the show was interesting!  There was no shortage of fights, crowd surfing bananas, drunk people, smelly people, dudes taking advantage of close quarters!  Typical concert shizz LOL!!! :D